Just The 6 Of Us

My smallest will be 2 on Easter Sunday. Until today he had never had a haircut. His hair isnt long, but only long in places. It seems to have grown in sections. He had what you call fly aways all over the place. Like the backs of his ears and the right and left sides of his head. The middle of head by his neck was ok. Very odd the way his hair grew.

Today I sat him up on the bathroom sink, gave him something to play with and I proceeded to give him a trim. Now, my mother is a hair dresser and she is pretty darn good at it. Me, not so much, but I have to say I did a good job on his. I only cut what really needed to be cut and trimmed the back. Then I stopped. Sometimes you dont get so lucky with hair dresser in the beauty shop, your hair looks good and then they start cutting again. Not sure why they do that *scratching my head*. I do have to say, I on the other hand I did stop and it looks fairly nice.

Of course he wasnt still (show my a 2 year old that is) so it may be a little crooked. There was no crying or fits. Actually everytime I cut a little piece he said, “tank yuu mommy.”

He is a handsome boy, I just wish he would stay small a little longer * sigh *

One of my all time favorite movies is You’ve Got Mail. I can almost repeat every line of it. Today as Iwas watching it for the uhmmm…5th time this week. One particular line stuck with me today.

“Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but valuable. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven’t been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn’t it be the other way around? I don’t really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void.”

So I am sending it out there too. Good night!

Ever since my grandmothers death there is this hole, that I think will never be filled. I miss her more than I could even possibly get anyone to understand. I have been missing her a lot these past couple of weeks.

I have a beautiful picture of her on my dresser (the only picture displayed in my house so far). My grandfather made it. He centered her picture in the middle of a blue flower. It makes me feel good inside to see her everyday.

Today at my grandfathers house, it hit me. Now, people will probably think my grandfather and I are crazy, but I said, “Pop-Pop, I think Mom-Mom has been to my new house.”

He said, “You do?”

“Yes I do. The reason I do is because of the lady bugs.” I continued to ask him if he remembered the first couple of months after her death and how there were lady bugs all over his house. He smiled and said,”Yes!”

“I had the same lady bugs, Pop-Pop. She was here too, the first week I was at the new house. They were all over. Elias even caught one an carried it around with him.”

My grandfather then said,”She was there, Tricia. She is everywhere.”

I have not seen a lady bug at his house for a long time and there have not been any here for the last 2 weeks. I guess she was just stopping by both places to make sure we were ok. I am want to believe in my heart that she was here and it could be just a weird thing that lady bugs were there and then here. Especially when we both needed her the most. But it helped him deal with all of the things following her death and today I feel much better having made that connection. So call us crazy
She would be happy to know I cooked Ham and Cabbage Friday night, the way she taught me and brought him some today.

Pop-Pop has saved some of her iris bulbs for me to plant here this spring. They would be a great home for lady bugs and more memories for me.

I dont have any updates on the house and everyone around here is pretty well. Dale made out wonderfully with his surgery. He is up and about with no problems, eating and sleeping well. Which I am thankful for because we all know how men can be when they are sick. I was really afraid that I was going to have 5 children on my hands this week. But he really has been good about not whining.

I could write about the drama that happened last week, but I wont. I am trying to move on and concentrate on happier things.

Oh I do have a funny story about the zoo today. My littlest one Adam was in his stroller and we (myself and one of my friends from my moms group) were feeding a Canadian Goose some cheddar pop-corn. The Goose kept pecking at Adam’s sippy cup because it was about the same color. Well, Adam went to get his cup just as this goose was nipping at it. He got his finger nipped and he freaked. Poor guy, he did the scared scream and the big tears. I had to carry him all the way back through the zoo. He wouldnt even let me put him down.

All night he has been walking round with his finger stuck out saying, “Bird, hurt. Eat poff-corn.” I am sure he is traumatized for life and I know we probably wont be able to go near the geese ever again. Although, he is so cute when he says that, I have to smile.

I am now living in my new home and loving life! All this space could make a girl dizzy. We all arent all squished up into 6 rooms anymore. Everyone has their own space and we are so happy.

I am sad that I have left my other home, the home I grew up in, but this is so much better than that place. I am so glad to be free!

We have been here for 1 week and the difference in the children is incredible. They are so much happier and the baby is sleeping through the night for the first time since he was 7 months old. Must be better air here!

Kelly wanted me to post some pictures, but I have not found what box my camera is in or the wire that connects it to my PC. So you will have to wait or just drive up here
Our game/computer room is still in disarray because we dont have desks to put our PC’s on yet. So I am here sitting in the floor using dial up *gasp* trying to keep up to date. I dont sit for to long because my but cheeks fall asleep and my foot. We are working on getting faster internet but when you live out here there isnt much to choose from. Satellite will be what we have to get. Money is real tight since the move, that will be the last on the list.

We got one car running and the van broke down (again)-so we are trying to manage the best we can. But I tell you we are doing it with smiles on our faces because we are so happy to be on our new home.

With all the good that has happened in the past week I have had some depressing things happen as well. I lost a friendship and 2 plants. Not sure if either of the 2 will come back to me. Maybe it is for the best, who knows.

Keep us in your thoughts tomorrow as Dale goes to have surgery. I am sure everything will be fine, but extra prayers never hurt anything
It feels really great to be back. I am going to try and catch up on your blogs now!

This will be my last post until I am all moved in and have internet back. Everyone take care & I hope to be able to catch up on all my blogs when we are settled.

WOOT WOOT! I am outta here!