Saturday morning my heart was heavy and I was a little sad. Friday night during my blog reads, I was reading a former friends blog (her decision-not mine) and saw that Julie had wrote a post about me and another one of my friends. I was referred to as gum stuck under her shoe and yucky; at least she didn’t call me a pig again. Even so, words like that hurt even as adult.
To make a long story short, Julie used to run the moms group that I still belong to. She chose to shut down the group and not have anything to do with us anymore, because of things that were said about her. I was not involved in this, but since I did not tell her and take her side, she cant trust me or even talk with me anymore. The thing is I didn’t take any side I was neutral. In her opinion I wasn’t. But I cant help what she thinks. I did try to mend fences with her later on and she still said no and then proceeded to tell me she never thought of me as a friend. Talk about a knife in the back!
Julie wanted me to stop reading her blog and I did for a while, but I figured why should I. I was closely involved with her for a long period of time, I care about her and her children. I enjoy reading about how they are growing up and seeing pictures of them. When she or her kids are going through a hard time, I say a little prayer for them. There is no malice in that at all.
So this next part is just for her. I am addressing Julie herself.
Julie,
I hope that this is the last time we have a conversation about this. I am not or have I ever antagonized you on your blog or even in life outside your blog. I did not search you out. You made the mistake of coming here (your not the only one who has site meter) and you didn’t just come to my blog once or twice…..it was quite a few times. You also go to 3 other former friends blogs, that you said you disliked.
In the blog post you referenced that I didn’t want anything to do with you. Not true Julie, you said that you didn’t want anything to do with me. My email about us putting this behind us and being friends, wasn’t a joke as you are making it now. It was from the heart! I told you I had prayed about it for a while before coming to you and now you mock me. Which is just downright shameful! I even put all the things that I heard that you said about me, my family, how I raise my children, my weight and other things that were very upsetting behind me and still tried to come to you in peace.
I came to WordPress and not Blogger because that is where you were. Then you came to WordPress. I became involved in the memes and WW, T13 and other things and now you are. The blog world for those types of things isn’t that big. So we will run into each other. As I am sure we will in town one day.
It is time to put it all behind you and move forward. Enough is enough already! I am not this mean, hurtful person you are making me out to be & it isn’t fair. I am tired aren’t you?
I read Lisa’s comment and she was right, but see I already knew all that. I knew all those things when I met you. You said that you have forgiven all that has happened. I don’t think so. You are very bitter and have unforgiveness in your heart. The bitterness you harbor will haunt you until you deal with it.
I have done some research on this. This is what I have found and maybe a close look at your heart my reveal to you what others see in you.
Heb 12:15 LOOKING DILIGENTLY LEST ANY MAN FAIL OF THE GRACE OF GOD; LEST ANY ROOT OF BITTERNESS SPRINGING UP TROUBLE YOU, AND THEREBY MANY BE DEFILED.
Stages of Bitterness
1. Oversensitive to a verbal remark, action, or lack of action.
2. Hurt feelings.
3. Repulsive feeling toward a person at the thought or sight of him.
4. Retaining wounds and frequently talking about them.
5. Alienation of a person.
6. Verbal slander against the person.
7. Lack of obedience (ref Mt 5:44,45).
8. Becoming like the one you despise.
Characteristics
1. A bitter person cares very little for the person he is bitter against.
2. He is very touchy.
3. Can be ungrateful.
4. Gives empty flattery and harsh criticism.
5. Holds grudges and finds it difficult to forgive.
6. He displays stubbornness or a sulky attitude.
7. Will help no one or complains sometimes when asked to help.
8. Experiences mood extremes—highs and lows.
Bitterness produces the “sin” of unforgiveness
1. Spiritually: An inability to love God. If we fail to forgive, we break the commandments of loving God and forgiving one another.
2. Emotionally: Creates an emotional focus toward the one who hurt. This focus results in us becoming just like the one we resent.
PR 15:1-A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger. PR 15:18-A hot tempered man stirs up dissension, but a patient man calms a quarrel.PR 16:7-When a man’s ways are pleasing to the Lord, he makes even his enemies live at peace with him.
Julie I don’t care if you come to my blog, that is what it is here for. So it can be read. I am asking you to end this and let it go.
